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galadhir:
Kylo Ren: And they were never home! They never paid any attention to me, always too busy with their jobs! I mean, I practically raised myself!
Hux, flipping through a magazine and drinking wine: Tragic.
//Hmmm, I have a few thoughts about this (gonna be long, sorry).
Okay, comparing the traumas of these two characters is funny at first but if you think about it, Ben/Kylo is very sensitive and he also has the Force and this means he sensed what others thought and felt about him which is crucial to understand him and the way he suffers all the time.
In comprasion Hux suffered so much more at the hands of his own father and we know it because it’s been canonically stated but Kylo and his childhood is foggy at best. What we know is that he loathes the Falcon, didn’t ‘hate’ his father and the deed shattered him and he didn’t kill his mom when he had the chance. Han leaving with the Falcon way too often and Ben being afraid he’d never come back, blaming himself because he thinks it’s his fault his parents didn’t get along (children blame themselves for parents separating, it’s a fact), and his parents look at him as if he was a timed bomb… not getting help when you needed it desperately and you just wish your father at least bloody stayed around and helped you. But no. He rather ran away from the problems.
Shatters me.
Because I know how does it feel. To have food, shelter, a room for yourself, but you can’t talk to your relatives about how lost you actually feel, how shitty it is that nobody sees behind the past you’re not even responsible for.
Sometimes ignorance is worse than anything else. Sometimes a kid does something bad so just for once his parents would finally pay attention and reach out to him. Sometimes being yelled at is better than to being ignored. I know it is.
Kylo searched for a father figure in his entire life just as Hux did, look how they’re both trying to get Snoke’s attention and approval in TFA. It’s painful to know that they both searched in the wrong direction, and the fact that Kylo couldn’t connect correctly with Luke or his parents and he let Snoke, a complete abusive asshat twist him as he wished. Snoke made him kill Han, but he has to deal with the consequences alone, and he’s chastised for feeling conflicted over the deed.
Punished for being in doubt if he did the good thing, over and over and over again.
On the other hand, Hux decided himself that it was bloody enough and no, he would not let his father terrorize him anymore. Which is a huge thing. Abused people are often too afraid to step up. I know, I was there, too. And I’m glad Hux did. (I never would’ve killed my own dad, even if I reconsidered, but, I’m still glad he made this important step.) It’s a real shame he was forced to serve Snoke who’s just as bad, and because of mind probing, even worse, than Brendol. When he had his scenes in TLJ and he was supposed to be ‘laughed at’, I sat stiffly in my seat and thought that Hux being tortured and humiliated is not funny at all. Because it was proven to me that he was not out of the loop of Hell.
Then the throne room scene. It’s so funny because I love both Hux and Kylo but I actually urged Hux in mind, kill him, kill him or he’s going to be the next to torture you and you can’t let that happen again, just bloody protect yourself, do it!
And when he ran out of time and my fears were justified I’m not lying, I cried. I hated how he got Force choked and I hated how Kylo threw him against the wall. He was a sassy butt, yes, but he didn’t deserve it.
So… just a final thought. Just because one person is in a shittier situation… it doesn’t mean that someone who has 'smaller’ problems can’t suffer, too. Because it’s not true. It was shit for Kylo, and it was shit for Hux. Just different kind of shit.
But it doesn’t make the 'lesser’ shit 'no’ shit.
bxwtothefirstorder:
galadhir:
Kylo Ren: And they were never home! They never paid any attention to me, always too busy with their jobs! I mean, I practically raised myself!
Hux, flipping through a magazine and drinking wine: Tragic.
//Hmmm, I have a few thoughts about this (gonna be long, sorry).
Okay, comparing the traumas of these two characters is funny at first but if you think about it, Ben/Kylo is very sensitive and he also has the Force and this means he sensed what others thought and felt about him which is crucial to understand him and the way he suffers all the time.
In comprasion Hux suffered so much more at the hands of his own father and we know it because it’s been canonically stated but Kylo and his childhood is foggy at best. What we know is that he loathes the Falcon, didn’t ‘hate’ his father and the deed shattered him and he didn’t kill his mom when he had the chance. Han leaving with the Falcon way too often and Ben being afraid he’d never come back, blaming himself because he thinks it’s his fault his parents didn’t get along (children blame themselves for parents separating, it’s a fact), and his parents look at him as if he was a timed bomb… not getting help when you needed it desperately and you just wish your father at least bloody stayed around and helped you. But no. He rather ran away from the problems.
Shatters me.
Because I know how does it feel. To have food, shelter, a room for yourself, but you can’t talk to your relatives about how lost you actually feel, how shitty it is that nobody sees behind the past you’re not even responsible for.
Sometimes ignorance is worse than anything else. Sometimes a kid does something bad so just for once his parents would finally pay attention and reach out to him. Sometimes being yelled at is better than to being ignored. I know it is.
Kylo searched for a father figure in his entire life just as Hux did, look how they’re both trying to get Snoke’s attention and approval in TFA. It’s painful to know that they both searched in the wrong direction, and the fact that Kylo couldn’t connect correctly with Luke or his parents and he let Snoke, a complete abusive asshat twist him as he wished. Snoke made him kill Han, but he has to deal with the consequences alone, and he’s chastised for feeling conflicted over the deed.
Punished for being in doubt if he did the good thing, over and over and over again.
On the other hand, Hux decided himself that it was bloody enough and no, he would not let his father terrorize him anymore. Which is a huge thing. Abused people are often too afraid to step up. I know, I was there, too. And I’m glad Hux did. (I never would’ve killed my own dad, even if I reconsidered, but, I’m still glad he made this important step.) It’s a real shame he was forced to serve Snoke who’s just as bad, and because of mind probing, even worse, than Brendol. When he had his scenes in TLJ and he was supposed to be ‘laughed at’, I sat stiffly in my seat and thought that Hux being tortured and humiliated is not funny at all. Because it was proven to me that he was not out of the loop of Hell.
Then the throne room scene. It’s so funny because I love both Hux and Kylo but I actually urged Hux in mind, kill him, kill him or he’s going to be the next to torture you and you can’t let that happen again, just bloody protect yourself, do it!
And when he ran out of time and my fears were justified I’m not lying, I cried. I hated how he got Force choked and I hated how Kylo threw him against the wall. He was a sassy butt, yes, but he didn’t deserve it.
So… just a final thought. Just because one person is in a shittier situation… it doesn’t mean that someone who has 'smaller’ problems can’t suffer, too. Because it’s not true. It was shit for Kylo, and it was shit for Hux. Just different kind of shit.
But it doesn’t make the 'lesser’ shit 'no’ shit.